Wonder
2010 (8th Grade)

What to do when a mind is pondering. Four walls do not a captive hold. When on'e body is hostage and soul is frail, all one can do is wonder. 

I wonder what will happen if I just let it all go. Can anyone not see this dim glow? Can anyone not hear this faint cry? Standing beneath the warmth of the sun and still so cold. What happened to that pretty face who was always happy? No one will ever believe she was tied together with a smile, and behind those big blue eyes lies a poor, tortured soul.

I don't build a wall around my heart to block out everyone. It's there to see who will climb over it. I'm tearing down these same four walls, but they just grow bigger. I'm trapped. What if I stay imprisoned, will my life fade away? When I throw my hands to the sky, will something take me away? Crying never accomplishes anything, so will dreaming evolve into believing? All one can do is wonder.

Compressed, Packaged, and Shipped Away. Who are they to say, all I am is fake? A puppet tied to strings, but this is no act. So much left to say, but no turning back.

Can't face the mirror. Can't bear the reflection. Hiding myself away. His arms, my only escape. What's the point of running away if you have to come back? That voice which calls to me... I wonder about that voice of reason I forgot I had.

I wonder if this will last long. Crying to the full moon and fighting for the sunlight. Though I've tried, myself I cannot hide. Will I survive? The truth, will I identify? Will my reflection become someone I recognize? All one can do is wonder.